Random thoughts on Holiday Giving and Taking

I’m listening to a story on KQED’s Forum, about the homeless school age children living in San Francisco. The story is sad. Poignant. And pitiful. Not the people caught in the mess of homelessness but the liberal view that we need more services and we need to take people in or give them from our own slim cupboard. Those calling in were, from what I can tell, the middle class bleeding hearts. One woman wanted to pay the rent on the featured woman’s SRO hotel. Great. Then what happens after the month? The woman who paid the freight is short funds and the woman and her kids in the SRO are again searching for a benefactor.

There were no representatives from Pacific Heights calling in.

During Vietnam people from all walks of life were drafted. The wealthy were able to shelter their offspring from the horror of war but not entirely. And there were just enough of a cross section of the economy and society getting harmed that in spite of entrenched communist domino theory dogma and military industrial complex economic profitability the war was shut down.

The engines of our two wars are being fueled for the most part by the underprivileged and evangelical and because of that the wars have continued unnoticed for over ten years. The seeds for the end of Vietnam came not from Congress but from the ground swell of the diverse social-economic population being mangled in the machinery of war. No one listens to when the poor cry to one another.

When the wealthy are being given bonus’s for being wealthy and the poor are being given pity for being poor we are strapped in and have set in motion a merry go round where neither side will ever meet. Vietnam became more like bumper cars. But in the intervening years the powers that be have devised ways to separate us, to create the merry go round and to eliminate the bumper car. I stood in the long unemployment lines in the cold during the Nixon oil embargo recession. Over the years during the worsening recessions the systems of separation have been streamlined. Today there are more people out of work but you would be hard pressed to actually see the unemployed standing in line. Those out of work have no forum for conversation besides “Social Media” to discuss the rotten state of our economic system. The computer has become the perfect tool for the state and corporate interests to disenfranchise the disaffected with little disruption.

We have more people in peril, economic and military, without actually seeing them, without hearing their voices, without acknowledging their existence. Oh sure there are well meaning stories on public television and radio, but the supposed dynamic generators of economic power are not feeling a pinch. Their children, for the most part are not dying in far away volunteer wars and they are not, in any sustained way relieving the stress of those in dire need by creating jobs.

Gigantic corporate and inherited wealth are the sacred cows of our society but from this vantage place they appear buggerish and rude. After all, one might conclude that they must have screwed a lot of people to gain so much.

It’s been proven time and time again that those of wealth will not voluntarily give up their good fortune. Congress’s lobbying for corporate interests have encouraged offshore jobs and import cheap labor, and with the sharp anti-labor knife have developed no strike contracts for the labor union eunuch meanwhile promising negotiated benefits that they’ll renege . So if they’re not creating jobs in the millions as we are lead to believe is the entrepreneurial mandate, if they feel no social connection to the family sleeping in Alamo Square and the shelters then I presume they leave us no choice – we take it. I mean, all workers understand that if they don’t perform, there are consequences. What’s good for the goose...

Grover Norquist is right, forget taxes.

My idea is simple. We take half. Not a reign of terror; we don’t line them up against the wall like the Romanoff’s, god forbid. And we don’t take everything. We take half.

If a Pacific Heights family of five can’t live on a half a billion dollars I’m sure we can make space for them in the Saint Anthony food line. The billions collected from Pacific Heights, Presidio Heights, Presidio Terrace and the other enclaves not just here but around the state would put our public schools on firm footing, wipe out city and state debt, and put people to work on public works projects creating jobs that may indeed keep families off the park benches, bridges from collapsing, and insuring stable long term financial stability for millions of California humans. The wealthy still deserve a seat at the table, therefore we include those of wealth in this one time redistribution plan. We’ll include them all right. As George Bush said, “it’s your money.” Time for the rich to give it back. Take half.

Why we're here

IN CONGRESS, JULY 4, 1776

The unanimous Declaration of the thirteen united States of America

 

W

hen in the Course of human events it becomes necessary for one people to dissolve the political bands which have connected them with another and to assume among the powers of the earth, the separate and equal station to which the Laws of Nature and of Nature's God entitle them, a decent respect to the opinions of mankind requires that they should declare the causes which impel them to the separation.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. — That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed, — That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness. Prudence, indeed, will dictate that Governments long established should not be changed for light and transient causes; and accordingly all experience hath shewn that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed. But when a long train of abuses and usurpations, pursuing invariably the same Object evinces a design to reduce them under absolute Despotism, it is their right, it is their duty, to throw off such Government, and to provide new Guards for their future security. — Such has been the patient sufferance of these Colonies; and such is now the necessity which constrains them to alter their former Systems of Government. The history of the present King of Great Britain is a history of repeated injuries and usurpations, all having in direct object the establishment of an absolute Tyranny over these States. To prove this, let Facts be submitted to a candid world.

He has refused his Assent to Laws, the most wholesome and necessary for the public good.

He has forbidden his Governors to pass Laws of immediate and pressing importance, unless suspended in their operation till his Assent should be obtained; and when so suspended, he has utterly neglected to attend to them.

He has refused to pass other Laws for the accommodation of large districts of people, unless those people would relinquish the right of Representation in the Legislature, a right inestimable to them and formidable to tyrants only.

He has called together legislative bodies at places unusual, uncomfortable, and distant from the depository of their Public Records, for the sole purpose of fatiguing them into compliance with his measures.

He has dissolved Representative Houses repeatedly, for opposing with manly firmness his invasions on the rights of the people.

He has refused for a long time, after such dissolutions, to cause others to be elected, whereby the Legislative Powers, incapable of Annihilation, have returned to the People at large for their exercise; the State remaining in the mean time exposed to all the dangers of invasion from without, and convulsions within.

He has endeavoured to prevent the population of these States; for that purpose obstructing the Laws for Naturalization of Foreigners; refusing to pass others to encourage their migrations hither, and raising the conditions of new Appropriations of Lands.

He has obstructed the Administration of Justice by refusing his Assent to Laws for establishing Judiciary Powers.

He has made Judges dependent on his Will alone for the tenure of their offices, and the amount and payment of their salaries.

He has erected a multitude of New Offices, and sent hither swarms of Officers to harass our people and eat out their substance.

He has kept among us, in times of peace, Standing Armies without the Consent of our legislatures.

He has affected to render the Military independent of and superior to the Civil Power.

He has combined with others to subject us to a jurisdiction foreign to our constitution, and unacknowledged by our laws; giving his Assent to their Acts of pretended Legislation:

For quartering large bodies of armed troops among us:

For protecting them, by a mock Trial from punishment for any Murders which they should commit on the Inhabitants of these States:

For cutting off our Trade with all parts of the world:

For imposing Taxes on us without our Consent:

For depriving us in many cases, of the benefit of Trial by Jury:

For transporting us beyond Seas to be tried for pretended offences:

For abolishing the free System of English Laws in a neighbouring Province, establishing therein an Arbitrary government, and enlarging its Boundaries so as to render it at once an example and fit instrument for introducing the same absolute rule into these Colonies

For taking away our Charters, abolishing our most valuable Laws and altering fundamentally the Forms of our Governments:

For suspending our own Legislatures, and declaring themselves invested with power to legislate for us in all cases whatsoever.

He has abdicated Government here, by declaring us out of his Protection and waging War against us.

He has plundered our seas, ravaged our coasts, burnt our towns, and destroyed the lives of our people.

He is at this time transporting large Armies of foreign Mercenaries to compleat the works of death, desolation, and tyranny, already begun with circumstances of Cruelty & Perfidy scarcely paralleled in the most barbarous ages, and totally unworthy the Head of a civilized nation.

He has constrained our fellow Citizens taken Captive on the high Seas to bear Arms against their Country, to become the executioners of their friends and Brethren, or to fall themselves by their Hands.

He has excited domestic insurrections amongst us, and has endeavoured to bring on the inhabitants of our frontiers, the merciless Indian Savages whose known rule of warfare, is an undistinguished destruction of all ages, sexes and conditions.

In every stage of these Oppressions We have Petitioned for Redress in the most humble terms: Our repeated Petitions have been answered only by repeated injury. A Prince, whose character is thus marked by every act which may define a Tyrant, is unfit to be the ruler of a free people.

Nor have We been wanting in attentions to our British brethren. We have warned them from time to time of attempts by their legislature to extend an unwarrantable jurisdiction over us. We have reminded them of the circumstances of our emigration and settlement here. We have appealed to their native justice and magnanimity, and we have conjured them by the ties of our common kindred to disavow these usurpations, which would inevitably interrupt our connections and correspondence. They too have been deaf to the voice of justice and of consanguinity. We must, therefore, acquiesce in the necessity, which denounces our Separation, and hold them, as we hold the rest of mankind, Enemies in War, in Peace Friends.

We, therefore, the Representatives of the united States of America, in General Congress, Assembled, appealing to the Supreme Judge of the world for the rectitude of our intentions, do, in the Name, and by Authority of the good People of these Colonies, solemnly publish and declare, That these united Colonies are, and of Right ought to be Free and Independent States, that they are Absolved from all Allegiance to the British Crown, and that all political connection between them and the State of Great Britain, is and ought to be totally dissolved; and that as Free and Independent States, they have full Power to levy War, conclude Peace, contract Alliances, establish Commerce, and to do all other Acts and Things which Independent States may of right do. — And for the support of this Declaration, with a firm reliance on the protection of Divine Providence, we mutually pledge to each other our Lives, our Fortunes, and our sacred Honor.

— John Hancock

New Hampshire:
Josiah Bartlett, William Whipple, Matthew Thornton

Massachusetts:
John Hancock, Samuel Adams, John Adams, Robert Treat Paine, Elbridge Gerry

Rhode Island:
Stephen Hopkins, William Ellery

Connecticut:
Roger Sherman, Samuel Huntington, William Williams, Oliver Wolcott

New York:
William Floyd, Philip Livingston, Francis Lewis, Lewis Morris

New Jersey:
Richard Stockton, John Witherspoon, Francis Hopkinson, John Hart, Abraham Clark

Pennsylvania:
Robert Morris, Benjamin Rush, Benjamin Franklin, John Morton, George Clymer, James Smith, George Taylor, James Wilson, George Ross

Delaware:
Caesar Rodney, George Read, Thomas McKean

Maryland:
Samuel Chase, William Paca, Thomas Stone, Charles Carroll of Carrollton

Virginia:
George Wythe, Richard Henry Lee, Thomas Jefferson, Benjamin Harrison, Thomas Nelson, Jr., Francis Lightfoot Lee, Carter Braxton

North Carolina:
William Hooper, Joseph Hewes, John Penn

South Carolina:
Edward Rutledge, Thomas Heyward, Jr., Thomas Lynch, Jr., Arthur Middleton

Georgia:
Button Gwinnett, Lyman Hall, George Walton

 

Cover Letter

Acme Consolidated Widgets

102 Uranus St.

San Francisco, CA.

 

 

Dear Mr. Prospective Employer,

My name is Mike and to tell you the truth I’m too old to be going through this shit. No really. In construction (I’m told, like a fading starlet, not to reveal my age or how long I’ve been working.) the job finding process goes like this: Application ; “Ya hiring?”

Interview; “Bring your tools?”

Negotiation; “Yeah.”

References; “Who ya work for?”

“The Karuts.”

Reference check: “East bay Krauts or west bay Krauts?”

“Milo, west bay.”

Provisional hire; “Jump up on the scaffold and go to work,”

I’ve finally got the message; I find myself in a new time and era – you win.

I’ll be good and try not to think on the past or the ridiculousness of the convoluted corporate evolved process. I promise. This time if you give me a job all you have to do is say jump and I’m jumping. Of course you understand that I probably won’t jump as high as your younger prospects but what is the point? Are we going for distance too? And if that’s the case all you have to do is tell me, I’ll lose a little weight and get some good shoes and hell, I’ll do my best. Really. So just gimme a chance and you can see how responsive an older member of your highly competitive workforce can be.

And Mr. Prospective Employer, if being a good worker bee in your corporate grindhouse means snitching on others or character assassination or just plain lying about what the others say about you and your cost cutting, profit raising, labor gouging measures I’m up to it. You know there was a time back in the bad old days when I had a Union behind me (remember unions?) when I wouldn’t take shit from any boss. Well those days are far behind me; I swear to that. I’ve seen the err of my ways and I’m sure I’ll be the sniveling spineless wretch of a hungry worker that you’ve been looking for. I know which side my bread is buttered on. My new mantra goes like this; a poor person never gave me a job. Say amen. So I’m hitching my wagon to you, if you’ll take me, and brother I don’t care which way we go just as long as it is away from this mess here. Yeah, after the divorce and bankruptcy and loss of health insurance and tapped out unemployment and my kid hating me and the landlord tacking the eviction notices and me tearing them up and breaking down on the one-oh-one and the electric shut off and disconnected phone and holes in all three pair of shoes and torn knees in my pants from begging for work and year round dinner popcorn, and waking with the fear and fear and fear nonstop for long enough to develop a tic. Did I say that I haven’t been laid in a year? Well I guess you could say I think I’m your ideal candidate.

Look forward to working with you soon, references upon request (although some of these guys have died over this past two years their widow’s will mostly vouch for me). 

Sincerely,

Mike Murray

 

 

Struggling with Faith 300

Faith 300

In 1969 Don McTavish qualifies for the Permatex 300. I imagine he's nervous but happy; designed for racing Don has faith in his abilities. Confident and humble he might not express his faith in his ability to control a race car those terms, he’d most likely say, “I’m running pretty good right now.” Don pilots his white number 5, 1969 Mercury Comet with  four hundred twenty seven cubic inches under the hood he's got gobs of power - strong motor. The car is fast. On the track, the car hums, no actually it roars like something angry at the world; he is in the belly of the beast. On purpose. His unexpressed faith is that with a few breaks he has a chance to win and if he wins he gets to kiss the Trophy Girl and the Trophy Girl is blonde and busty and her hair is in a lacquered beehive and she is wearing pumps and a satiny poofy dress. And as the race progresses the Trophy Girl is having a few drinks to take the edge off because everyone expects a Trophy Girl to sleep with the promoter, which some of them do but she hasn’t yet. She doesn’t want to be that kind of girl.

Don is queer for racing for he loves sitting in race cars more than steering Trophy Girls. This racing queer rips along; he is a strange alien existing in the toxic atmosphere of leaded exhaust and deafening sonic roar of unmuffled big block engines. He’s cuddly comfortable in big greasy noise with his racing fellows. The pace laps are constricted; tight. The flag drops the engines open throat roar, and there seems no place to go just yet. The track is crowded; tight, the field is something like fifty cars. Eight laps into it and things have opened a bit, he’s okay; car feels great, plenty of throttle left for the straights and for later when the real racing starts.

Ninth lap, something happens, they are so close, so very, very close, the guy behind him unable to avoid, bumps Don. He’s way up on the outside of the track, not the best place to be. Now they are flying, around one hundred and sixty miles per hour; a bump into the guardrail. The guardrail collapses. And now he meets the butt end of the concrete wall going full speed into the third turn. The car explodes. The big roaring engine is flung one hundred feet; a mindless lump of steel and grease. He’s spun at a forty-five degree angle in the lane, then sixty, then ninety degrees his tires explode ignited by heat and friction. This is just the beginning. The car has a mind of it’s own; Don a traveler in nightmare. The devastation terrible beyond all others and just like that, there is nothing in front of Don. No. There is nothing. The front clip is gone, the fenders, engine. The firewall has disappeared and everything attached to it; gas, break, and clutch peddle; gone. The wreck yanked the steering wheel right out of his hands and tossed it into the metalic maelstrom, the front of roll cage has disappeared. The car, less substantial than a Roman chariot spews pieces and fluids in a sweeping arc like a lawn sprinkler, the crippled wreck turns revealing Don buckled in, scrunched in the corner of the seat, shoulder harness across his chest, hands useless at his side. He’s spinning, spinning, spinning, without means of control in a world turned horror. Salvation is in the hands of the gods and his faith. And as he spins in a cloud of tire, blown engine, and radiator smoke a dark and sinister force blasts through the cloud, eddying the smoke around the shape of the racecar around the churning tire wells, and you can see the thing as it unfolds yet you dassent avert your gaze as the dark car and Don McTavish are drawn into magnetic cataclysm. And as Don’s white car spins to face its opponent there is the crashing explosion that turns known objects into shards of metal and rubber and glass and other sharp edged, toxic, industrial waste, a small white sack that used to be Don McTavish; human, somehow still attached, is dragged along with the disintegrating, tumbling ruin, Hector behind Achilles chariot. Ahab strapped to his quest. Faith alone does not save men.

Bricks

Brick crushed his chest. Over time, an entire pallet of brick lay on him. Some were thoughtfully, willfully, placed, others dumped in a rough heap from a rock pocked, rusty, wheelbarrow. After a while, gravity, desperation and lack of air. He’s bug-eyed and blue from exhalation.

The brick load started slowly; one common brick = one beef, an argument, then another, it goes like that. Then the Normans, a little larger, a little more weight. Later jumbo bricks with “divorce” and “custody battle” and “financial settlement” and “visitation” imprinted and fired in the raw clay till the brick became dark and hard and they too were loaded on the pallet. He can’t deny the weight now but he’s pinned and unable to offload. To the untrained eye the brick seem dumped on the palette in a heap but from his unique vantage he knows there’s order to the brick stack. Now, lately, there’s more heft to the load. More bricks stamped, “layoff,” “repossession,” “parking fine,” and “overdrawn,” “late fee,” all adding to the impersonal collateral damage. His flattened lungs scream silently for air while the noise in his head roars like the ferocious hot brick kiln furnace. Today the weight of clay is too much to bear. Plus, this morning, he’d drunk five cups of coffee for breakfast— maybe that’s what set him off.

He’ll fix everything— grab his board and paddle out through the breakers, past the fog bank, into the shipping lanes, head west to find the East, to China, find the spot where the sun boils into the ocean. And in the process pull off the magic trick of finding a true vanishing point. He’ll disappear from earth without a trace, oh sure, a sailor aboard a freighter from Tasmania may spot the battered surfboard out in the endless churning Pacific, the sailor may wonder how this red, blue and green Hawaiian flowered thing got so far from shore but this will be the only query, there are many things unexplained in the ocean.

He pulls his oxidized Ford truck, off Highway 1. He notes the little character adding dents on the fenders and hood trying to remember how the truck looked when he drove it off the dealer’s lot. Parked on this lonely stretch of beach he welcomes the ticking, cooling engine, the sound of ocean, and the mist gray sky. He doesn’t take his keys out of the ignition, no need for keyed things again. He squirms into his wetsuit, pulls his longboard from the back, and trudges hangdog and splashing into the water. He doesn’t look back to shore but wades in the cold, green water. When it reaches his waist he drops the surfboard in the water, lies down on the board and begins paddling into the threatening breaking surf.

Emerging from his fight through the breakers into the relative calm of deep water, he begins to feel warm. Breathing deeply he straddles his board like a strange wet cowboy. No rush, he figures he can paddle, take a break, paddle some more and do this for of hours. There is no time clock on his quest for oblivion.

Just then, just when his mind settles to his task, a titanium, colored 1959 Desoto drops from the sky and hovers inches above the water, the controls are manned by a navigator covered absolute in shiny black latex, the surfer can’t make out a face or mouth, the pilot is without definition. Immediately the mystery Desoto ranks as savagely ominous as a Great White shark— and, of course, he panics. Who wouldn’t? In a blurred flurry of arms and legs and splashing he turns his longboard. Undone by primal hysteria he’s terrestrial again flailing for shore. He flings himself to the dubious safety of a swell coming in. In his mad dash terror, he takes off too soon, the wave has peaked and is curling in on him, the board noses in under the wave and he pearls — becoming a speck of irritant in the maw of the sea — he’s sucked into power of the wave and driven to the sea bottom, the board now launches skyward, drunken crazy, like an early Soviet rocket. Tumbling under the wave the surfer is exquisitely free from gravity. Like a demented wild-eyed sea bird he breaks the surface, gasping for oxygen from the foggy sky. Above, the scene the spaceship hovers peacefully. The surfer takes stock of this juxtaposition — sky and sea and hovering car. His small purchase of reality has nothing solid for reference except for the vehicle.

The spaceship is the spitting image of the long finned ‘59 Desoto. A Desoto with a little customizing, the four headlamps seem inspired from the pages of Playboy magazine— lovely up turned cones with centered bumps that resemble Hershey Kisses. So the rocket’s had a double boob job and the wheel wells and undercarriage are smoothed over, clad in space age sheet metal charred from heat and friction during space travel. The Desoto hovers but doesn’t push and scatter the water the way a helicopter would, if it makes any sound it’s not audible over the surf.

Nervously glancing over his shoulder he paddles out again, the waves are good. The surfer senses the Desoto at rest but what does he know about space travelers and their intentions? In a few minutes, he’s paddled out past the breakers and is bobbing on his board waiting for another set of waves to come in.

A flat but echoing voice emanates from the Desoto, its electronic tenor reminds him strangely of New York Jew, “Sonny boy, I see you’re new at this— you won’t catch a cold if you don’t come in a bit and paddle with some oomph.”

Amazed, the surfer looks up, “ You speak Eng…There’s surf on Mars?”

“Think about playing the Catskills? And sonny, when the swell picks up your tushy and you start sliding down, dig with both arms.”

Grumbling to his board, “Shithead Martian.” The surfer is a beginner— the last take off didn’t go too well— the alien might be on to something. He begins to paddle, collecting the on coming swell, the tail of the board rises, he digs with both arms as the wave crests, the board dips down into the green water then as by divine intervention the nose comes up, he’s got the wave, though he slips a bit he gets to his feet and rides the wave most-way to the shore where he does a falling dismount in the water. An eerie cheer that seems to come from inside the rocket echoes his own triumphant, involuntary whooping.

No longer fearful of the Desoto or its pilot, the surfer paddles again through the white water, through the breaking swells, out into safe deep water, straddling the board and breathing hard, he’s buoyant atop the unmatched ancient energy of the sea. Out here he catches his breath, out here he can catch his breath. He’s become the mythical urban trucker who’s forgot to close the tailgate; slowly his load of brick is dropping off into the Pacific.

The space ship glides in close and the surfer beholds the spectacular—a perfect single drop of emerald seawater glistening beneath the singed belly pan of the Desoto.

“Wa…why are you here? Don’t have to rush off and destroy civilization or some other damn thing?” The surfers voice is strangely calm he’s making conversation not accusations. “Don’t mean no disrespect but there’s no people or politics … aint’ nothing important goin on out here.”

The Desoto sits motionless as if painted to the sky, the voice booms, “I just spent three hundred of your years getting here. I’m in no rush.” The Desoto dips a bit. “Who’s to say what’s important?”

“ Yeah but you don’t really belong here now do you?” Waves break over the nose of the board and he runs fingers through his wet hair for no aesthetic reason.

“ Sonny I could say the same for you, dressed in neoprene and sitting on a Styrofoam and fiberglass board in the ocean. Am I mistaken or are you in the wrong element? Gills I don’t see.”

“Okay, okay. You’ve got a point but this is fun — when it works. Strange fun like horror movies or sex, which can kinda be the same thing sometimes. You hip to sex? ”

“Intercourse for procreation or fun?”

The surfers face beams, “Fun.”

“Oy, sonny boy, the girls of Zoltar… stories I could tell…”

“ That’s what surfing’s like — scared and excited sex. But... You already know this don’t you?”

“It’s a big universe…”

A swell gathers and rises and pushes to shore. “I’m going for this one …”

“Paddle, Paddle, Paddle. You got it now— Dig, Dig, Dig. Ride earthling like there’s no tomorrow,” You never know.

He catches the wave, ascends to a fighters crouch, feels the sea churning beneath his board and feels — exalted — the remainder of his load has capsized without regret. Now there’s nothing but this moment, and in this moment he’s on the right side of things, life balances, in this moment— this one small piece of time — there is perfection. Overcome he slips and falls backward in the surf. Unburdened lungs inhale salted air. He catches a few more waves. Finally he glides through the frothing white water to shore. He’s grinning. He’s aware of the surf’s sibilance, a squawking gull, sparkling grains of mica in the sand — his head chatter’s dissipated like the burned off morning fog. The sand massages the surfer’s feet as he ambles to his truck— surfboard tucked under his arm like schoolbooks —lightened. Today’s great weight, gone. Sunlight shimmers off the keys still suspended in the ignition, reminding him of today’s lapsed mission.

Looking west, the sun has dipped, diffused light from our star shimmers jewel like from countless waves, a flock of pelicans glides over the water, everything in his vision is open and clear and limitless. In the fold of horizon, the Desoto has vanished.

Things My Daughter Taught Me

I’ll admit my chilly little secret. I love riding my bicycle in the winter. As a transplant from the north eastern Rust Belt and a veteran of “lake effect” big snow, the thrill of winter roads without snow and ice has never worn off.

I resumed riding with regularity in 1994 as a way to get my then, year and half old daughter, Ezra, into the air and out in the world. Our first ride with the rack mounted child seat occurred late that fall. After bundling Ezra up in her warmest clothes and buckling her helmet, without pinching her neck in the clasp, we rode out to Golden Gate Park through the Panhandle decked in autumn tones. We stopped at the Pagoda at Stowe Lake to eat goldfish crackers and drink juice. On cue, raindrops began ticking down against the jade colored tile roof of the pagoda.

The sun was setting. We were not prepared. No raingear for Ezra. No light for the bike. Worry consumed me on our ride home; the enveloping dark, the volume of rain, the cold. Ezra, I thought, is going to be scarred by this and would rather be with her mother. Anxiety hit me faster then the rain; I’ve ruined her cycling experience - forever. I imagined my face on a not-wanted poster, “Worst Dad Ever.” As a rational counter point to my perceived failure as a human, cyclist, and father, Ezra transcended my petty worries, “Dad, can I have-a-gum?”

Somehow we made it home alive. Along the way Ezra noticed something of the other cyclists. Debarking from her kid seat she asked, “Dad you have a dingy bell?”

“No.” Ezra looks puzzled.

“You have a blinky light?”

“No.”

Oddly, Ezra’s face assumes a strange resemblance to my old high school Vice Principal, “Dad. Get a blinky light… And a dingy bell.”

Sheepishly. “Yes dear.”

Eventually Ezzie out grew her kiddy seat. Her first bike tires were about as big as a five-cent pieces. We practiced riding bikes at Crissy Field. And as things go, her bike too, received a dingy bell, and a blinky light. Ezra out grew her first bike; we purchased another, then another.

Our first ride resonates still; it instilled in me a few ideas that I keep to this day. First, despite the rain and cold we had a great time. I was thrilled as she pointed out dogs and birds and other bikes along the way. Second, she was right about the bell and light. I can extrapolate and say, that when I eliminate extraneous loose ends my time on the bike goes better; lights, bell, helmet (my preference), good tires, working brakes. My city bike also sports fenders and an incredibly fashionable basket.

I’ll ride this winter, happy in the stinging cold wind and the profound near silence of the bike, strobbing bright, on the dark morning streets.